From the most ancient days, man has asked again and again why is there suffering in life. If God is the father, then why is there so much suffering? If God is love and God is compassion, then why does existence suffer? Only by understanding Jesus can we get a satisfactory answer to this question. Human beings suffer because there is no other way to mature, to grow. Humans suffer because only through suffering can one become more aware.
Nothing is meaningless in this world. It is a cosmos, it is not a chaos. We cannot understand it because we know only fragments not the whole. We experience life just as if we have only one tattered page of a novel: it makes no sense on reading because it is just a small fragment and the whole story is not known. Once the whole story is known, then that page becomes comprehensible, coherent, meaningful.
Jesus on the cross was the symbol of the final suffering, the absolute suffering, the peak of suffering. On the cross Jesus wavered a little. The suffering was too much. It was no ordinary suffering, not ordinary body pain, it was anguish: not only physical, but deep psychological anguish – the anguish of feeling abandoned by God. And He asked God, “Why?” It was a moment of very deep anguish, when all the foundations and even faith is shaken. Then suddenly he realized why, because he became very much aware; the moment of crucifixion he came to perfect awareness.
Before that moment he was Jesus, after that moment he became Christ. Jesus disappeared and there was Christ. Immediately after the anguish he said, “No! Thy will should be done.” He accepted it. Thy will should be done because my will is going to be wrong.
The same energy that was creating intense suffering in Jesus is now transformed. It’s quality changes. There is only one energy in the human body. You can use it for sex, you can transform it and make it into love, you can transform it still higher and make it into prayerfulness, you can transform it still higher and make it awareness. Whenever there is suffering – mental, physical or existential, close your eyes and look at the suffering, make it a meditation. Look at it as an object separate from you, with which you are not identified. The bridge is broken, and the energy that was going to move into suffering will not move, because the bridge is no longer there. Whenever there is suffering become aware; then the bridge is broken, there is no transfer of energy to suffering and by and by it starves to death.